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Dec. 2nd, 2009

Blame it on the Bunny

Can everyone do (us) a favour and pop by Blame it on the Bunny?

MUCH LOVE!!

Nov. 30th, 2009

Hello

4 years ago, I had just graduated from the most fantastic school (where every day was like living in disneyland - everyone was so happy and contented). Our prom night just happened and I got to spend a wonderful night out with the most charming and funny person ever whom I was in contact with since March. No thanks to tidiesitriedtoswimagainst and Andrew, of course. Every day, you were so funny.

3 years ago, I was probably crying at this hour. I was gasping for breath to relieve the ache in my heart. I was sad and in despair. I had so many unanswered questions and many "Why God why?s". I felt like a third-party. I felt guilt. And so I denied myself from feeling any pain because I caused others pain? Yet I also felt like a victim. I began to identify with a certain on-screen character as a way of easing whatever I felt. I also couldn't tell anybody about it. My other best friend was really angry with me. I felt that I had lost everything. I was in a terrible, terrible shape.

2 years ago, I was probably fast asleep and tired from work. I still thought about my heart ache but it wasn't so bad, since we didn't exchange anything beyond one-word messages. I was very tired from the battles of 2006/2007 and no longer felt accountable to anyone and so indulged in the much needed rest. Also, I was receiving many letters of commendation informing of prize moneys. I felt appreciated. But that appreciation did not spur me to want to continue to achieve anything more. I also knew the synonymity and identification of me with my sport had come to an end. I was also in the midst of completing my applications. I was so sure I would go America. Heart, why are you taking so long, I asked. Why are you still holidaying in Japan? Come home. My grandma and best (animal) friend passed away. None of you are in Heaven now, but I just wanted you to know I loved you all anyway.

1 year ago, I was finally at peace. I wasn't at a school which I had expected myself to be. It didn't even occur to me that I did well enough during my interview to be granted a place. I continued studying in Singapore. We met, again. What we had wasn't sufficiently stable. I still felt very suspicious. But you were a changed person. You were so patient and weren't the person I knew in late 2006. But you seemed like a matured version of the person I knew in 2005 which I had fond memories of. I kept wanting to drop out but you persisted. That was new to me because all I could remember was you wanting to give up all the time. It got me so mad.

1 year ago, I had started taking baby steps of faith. All my questions, I had found answers. I was so happy. God had provided all that I wanted to understand. For all that has happened in my life, it was part of God's plan. Very amazing, very new. I stumbled from time to time but I knew that I couldn't go back to my old ways. I didn't want to. I have to grow and I have to get better.

Today, I am still recovering. Obviously not everything is about the heart. There have been many repercussions because of this single event. For example, I have turned inward and am socially awkward around people. I used to talk so much. I am not upset that I have so much more on my platter to deal with. Instead, with every good change I can only say it has been by God's grace.

One of the things I have been consciously attempting to better is communication .. with anyone/everyonel. Given the choice, I would rather not speak to anyone at all. Yet theoretically I know I must step beyond this because the Lord's work is at stake. I do want to share the joy of the Lord with so many people around me. It's like finding some 50% discount code off Urban Outfitters and wanting to let all my friends know so we can do some major group order!!! And so having a conversation is a big, big mile stone for me. It is something you might take for granted but I have prayed hard and long to be able to feel comfortable sufficiently and so say the right things.

This is a good God. This is the only God.

Nov. 17th, 2009

Happy Birthday, Daddy!

Happy birthday Dad. You were the first who taught me to play badminton :).

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Nov. 1st, 2009

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I am going for what is good and true! 13th December!!!!!

Thank you God for the great year!! I couldn't ask for any better!!

In case you think I'm a nut, I'm learning to give thanks even before the year has ended! This was something Pastor had challenged us to do very early in the year. Obviously I was skeptical about it initially, but as I meditated on it, I realized that it was something reasonable to try. After all, giving thanks before something has been done - it's all about faith, isn't it!

I apologize for the earlier alienating entry. The lack of support beyond the church is overwhelming. I do feel defenseless against all these reactions which have been accumulating, and contrary to popular belief, I have not been ignoring them. Out of this frustration and in the context of the day, I wrote prior entry to shore up my weak self and it was less of the people/issues/whatever.

I offer my sincerest apologies.
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Oct. 24th, 2009

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Your words cannot leave me,
Where You grace will not keep me.
Your hand will protect me,
I rest in Your care.
Your eyes will watch over me,
Your love will forgive me.
And when I am faltering,
I still will find You there.

Oct. 3rd, 2009

GOOD WEEKEND



(thank you d.Sharp Journal)

Sep. 30th, 2009

Ceramics



This looks exactly like something I have done before. When I was experimenting with textures.

Though many claim art to be very therapeutic, I will testify to how it can be altogether destructive as well. It gets very pointless sometimes because they are pretty much just tools of expression of the mind. By undertaking this somewhat destructive pursuit, it expresses faith in human capacities. A legacy of the Enlightenment.

And if you have lived life substantially (minimum 20 years), you would have discovered how lacking we are as humans. And to have faith in this human race..?? Seriously......... you need to wake up from your idea.....

Art simply has to be pursued in the right context. Find this context, else your art has no meaning. If your answer is passion, kindly start from the top and begin again. Did I not just mention to you of the inadequacies of the human being which includes his mind and HEART???

On this note, I leave you with a famous verse from Jeremiah 17:9 that is echoed by this very sick book of similar title by JT Leroy (which I used to like very much)

“ The heart is deceitful above all things,
And desperately wicked;
Who can know it?

Sep. 25th, 2009

Our Statement of Faith

Our Statement of Faith

We believe in the divine inspiration of the Scriptures, their consequent inerrancy and infallibility, and as the Word of God, have the final authority in faith and life.

We believe in one God existing in three co-equal and co-eternal Persons, Father, Son and Holy Spirit.

We believe that Jesus Christ, the eternal Son of God, was conceived by the Holy Spirit, born of the virgin Mary, is true God and true man.

We believe that man was created in the image of God, but sinned through the fall of Adam, and therefore all human beings are born sinful and become sinners in thought, word and deed.

We believe in the bodily resurrection of Jesus Christ, His ascension to heaven, His exaltation on high and He is now our High Priest and Advocate.

We believe in the visible and premillenial return of Jesus Christ to judge this world and to bring peace to the nations.

We believe that salvation is by grace through faith, not of works, and all who are saved are born again by the Holy Spirit and have become the children of God.

We believe that the ministry of the the Holy Spirit is to glorify Christ and to convict, regenerate, indwell, guide, instruct and empower the believer for godly living and service.

We believe in the practice of the Sacrament of Baptism and Sacrament of the Lord's Supper.

We believe in the eternal security, bodily resurrection and eternal blessedness of the saved.

We believe in faithfully maintaining the purity of the Church in doctrine and life according to the Word of God.


I don't know why I just cried reading it... but this is exactly everything that I believe in as well. I think when you shave off the unnecessaries.. and when the truth comes down to these few simple, straightforward sentences, it is very overwhelming.

The truth that sets you free.

You know, this is a good church. A really good church. You know I don't know what these people actually get out from what they do because I don't pay them a single cent to teach me for hours on weekends. I don't pay them for all the amazing meals I have. I'm like a free loader if you think about it, and still they care so much.

Most importantly, their teachings are doctrinally sound. I cannot be more thankful for Bethany.

Sep. 24th, 2009

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Now who is the good man who told me that writing in short sentences is key to a good essay?

How is everyone's week break?

I'm having a good time. Sent my Indian friends on a gambling cruise on tuesday(woah) and downed a hotcakes meal in ten minutes, also on a tuesday.

How I Met Your Mother started again... and so life is really, really good.

I fell sick from the rain on Saturday and the sneezes went on and on through the weekend and a little till Monday.

I'm waiting for my Southeast Asia teacher to reply me. Please pray he replies as soon as he can!!

Sep. 20th, 2009

REALLY bad engagement photos

Take a look!! Oh my goodness I just died laughing. And sneezing all at the same time while I'm just about to burst into laughter. That ended up being really messed up. But not as messed up as these pictures!! Anyway here are some SUPER funny ones!

When has one EVER fallen asleep halfway in the Ocean???


I hold her in the palm of my hands.


Look what I can do!!


He's trying to ESCAPE!!!


Congratulations on your abusive relationship!!


(Guidespot: Love is Funny)

Ahhh soo funny!!!

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